Posted by: MtnWoman Silver | December 31, 2017

Transitioning From “Artist” to a Human Being

I began this blog in 2009 to promote myself as a visual artist. I limited my postings to my paintings and quilts and news of exhibits and gallery goings-on. In 2015, due to some curves sent my way by LIFE, I absented myself from the galleries. I lost interest in my current creative efforts. In April, 2015, I traveled to St. Louis to see my niece who had advanced leukemia. There was little I could do for her. By years end, death took my niece, my beloved father-in-law, and a dear friend.

With that many deaths, I began to examine my own life–where I was, and where I was going. What would I leave behind when I died? Was what I had been striving for all my adult life worth the effort? From 2009-2015, I had worked with two galleries, had both group and one-person exhibits, won some awards, sold some work, been featured for a segment on a news show, and had write-ups in several magazines.

I seem to be slowly doing all the right things to gain me recognition. Yet, with each accolade, I wanted it less and less. Everyone I met always inquired, “What are you working on these days?” “Where are you showing?” “When is your next exhibit?” I was always introduced to people as an artist, no mention about any other aspect of my life. I was a one-note person. The more recognition I received for art, the less I liked being the focus of people for that reason.

All of 2015, the only art I was doing was ink drawings in a 3″ x 5″ sketch book; I really considered I was doing nothing. In 2016, I began creating paintings of some of these drawings, choosing to do them in black and white and grey. (Maybe the deaths had something to do with eliminating color.) So, when people asked, I could now say I was working on a black and white series. In 2016, I finished 10 paintings ranging in sizes from 18″ square to 24″ x 36″. I hit a wall with 10 more paintings planned. No painting in 2017. Silver's-Studio-3-July-2107-w

Not only was I questioning whether my well had run dry artistically, I was struggling with “meaning of life” issues. I’m still in the middle of those questions and will deal with some in future  blogs. I know I have created some wonderful and worthwhile art, but is that all I will be remembered for?  What kind of friend am I? What kind of mother, sister, wife am I? What kind of citizen am I? ‘

I hope you will stay tuned and give me feedback on future posts.

Copyright 2017 by MtnWoman Silver.


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